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B&W

This here is an old pic of me, I can tell because my eyebrows were thinner but besides that everything else looks pretty much the same today.
The photographer was my friend Pepe. A great man from Cuba that I actually met a work at the first club I worked at, Starz in Gardena CA. He had a photo studio and I spent many hours there taking pictures, even learning to develop them, like this one - I developed it myself in his darkroom.
We shared many lunches at a Cuban restaurant, where I always ordered black beans, rice and plantains. I enjoyed many good talks about life with him. I called Pepe "grandpa" because that's what he became to me.

Baggage

I just read some article about a man, here in the US that has 30 kids with 11 different women. To me, that is totally disgusting. First of all, as a woman.....I would had never allowed myself to get pregnant by him, let alone even date him.
That guy should be forced to have a vasectomy. I do not approve of mindless breeding. For humans and animals.
I do not have kids and I actually would rather not get involved in a relationship with somebody that has kids. I prefer men with no kids. Kids are like baggage, they come with baby mama's and potential problems. I would consider it if the guy was my dream man, somebody I felt very strongly for or if the kids were grown up already, like teenagers.
But a guy with a toddler or even worse, two or more toddlers, no thanks. When I hear about single people with small kids that date around I get annoyed. I think they should concentrate on being a parent first and only and forget about the dating until later. The first five or six years of a child's life are crucial for how the child will develop as an individual and if you constantly date around and bring home new "mommy's and daddy's then I think you are being an irresponsible parent. How do they find the time to date with a few small kids to take care of, if they are the primary care giving parent that is.
And really, who would like to date a person with 30 kids already? What a turn off. And what about Octomom, she has 14 kids and she takes care of them all, no daddy around. I don't think she has too many suitors. But maybe she isn't looking either.
I watched the new Bachelorette (Emily) the other day and some guy was on there and he was a father of six. Of course she didn't want to date him, I wouldn't either. How about you build a strong relationship with your wife first before you start to reproduce? And stick with the marriage. Six kids are four too many. One or two kids maybe.
And I think the Bachelorette herself should be happy that any guy wants to deal with her and her baggage, meaning her kid. Actually, she should be single a few more years.
Sure there are always some exceptions of great people that make it work and are amazing parents even though there is one child or a handful of children involved. But most of the time, I see some questionable parenting.

Easy and Sleazy

If it wasn't for all the funny and sometimes annoying characters I work with and sometimes encounter while at work I wouldn't have any stories for all my readers.......
Last night was.....ok......not good but worth my time. BUT there is a girl at work that is super funny but also her behavior is changing the whole atmosphere in there. And I am not the only one that has complained about this issue.
She is acting really slutty. I do not know her outside of the club. I think that she has a lot of good things going for her but the way she is acting with the guys that come in overshadow everything else. That's too bad.
For example, another girl I work with told me that whenever she would sit and chat with a guy and had to leave for a while, either to go on stage or go to the restroom, this other girl, the slutty one, would sit down with the guy immediately and start rubbing his crotch (!), yes, you read it right, his crotch under the table or bar. After a few minutes of this and her dirty talk, she talks dirty all the time, most of the guys would leave and get some dances with her. You might think this is ok but it is NOT. First of all, we have rules to follow. The rules are there from a legal standpoint and also the rules make it fair for everyone. When one or a few girls constantly break the rules, the club can get shut down or the owner may be slapped with a heavy fine. And the guys that come in there will start thinking that this is "normal" dancer behavior and are going to expect it from every girl that approaches them and won't get dances unless you are willing to act like this. Also, SOME (not all) dancers see this and think they have to act the same way in order to make money and the whole club gets destroyed. And gets a bad reputation. Not good.
Let me explain something to you, I NEVER put my hands of face in a guys crotch. Or inside his pants. Why girls do this, I don't know. Why???
Last night some guys came in, they had never been there before. Right away, the "slutty girl" attacked them, she does that, latches on as soon as somebody walks through the door. And one of the first things that came out of her mouth was "I am easy and sleazy". I was within earshot, so I heard her say it. That set the tone for them. I would never in my life say this to some random guys that come in.
Because I am NOT easy and NOT sleazy.
I can JOKE around with people, like Borat style jokes, but usually it's with people that come in all the time and it is understood that we are joking around and other people are laughing and joking too. It's not like I walk up to random guys, grab their private parts and whisper in their ear about all the sleazy stuff I am willing to do if they get a dance. Yuck.
Then she sat at the bar with them while they were digging in between her ass cheeks. Cute. Not.
There are many clubs that would fire her right away, her style of working would not be ok at many clubs. And that's a good thing.
So this is becoming a problem actually. A problem means - when I think another persons behavior is directly affecting my income.
I am not going to act the way she does in order to maybe make money. Therefore, she needs to tone it down, a lot and follow the rules.
It really is too bad that there are girls that damage stripping like this. The outcome is that the quality girls will leave and only the nasty ones will be around. So unfortunate for everybody involved.

Love the Dip Dye!

I love how dip dyed hair looks. It is so cute. I would like to try it but I am not sure since my hair is so long. In case you never seen me in real life, I have hair down to my butt crack. But then I found a pic of a girl with long hair that's dip dyed and it looks good, I think.
I do not change my hair often at all, it's been long and light brown forever. I would try dip dye if I could put in a temporary color and if I did not have to bleach the ends of my hair, since the bleaching process is so damaging.
I also read that you can color the tips by using felt pens or markers, that seems like a good idea since the color washes out right away.
Hmmmmm......maybe I will try felt pens see what happens.

Images borrowed from google.

Todays To Do List

Here is my BORING to do list of today.......
Vacuum. It's like the most awful chore ever. I think I'd rather scrub a toilet.
Drive to town to get food and do some errands, that feels like a chore too today. Until I get the food that is, then I will be very happy.
Spend some time outside with Chhaya. I don't mind doing that. The sun is shining but it is cold and windy. Another Arctic day, bleh.
Shower, shave, lotion up, glue on my lashes and go to work. Feels like a chore too. So it better be worth my time!
I think I need some quality time in front of a huge speaker blasting some house music and dark beats. If I am not mistaken that is coming up.
Also, trying to decide if I should schedule some more Williston time for the fall, this has to be planned months in advance, kind of like going to the Oscars. Though instead of some Hollywood glam it's just a dusty little town in North Dakota where strippers go.

Movies

I can't wait to see The Dictator with Sacha Baron Cohen. I LOVE him, I think he is the funniest person ever. And he is cute, in real life. And he is probably really smart too besides the funny part - the perfect man. Though he is kind of too hairy but on the other hand, he won't go bald anytime soon. Anyway, I wish I could meet him sometime so I could impress him with my Borat accent. And I would shave his hairy legs. He would LIKE!!!
I am number one in Alaska!!!

The Dictator

Photo by Mike Marsland/Wireimage

Borat

Photo by Evan Agostini/Getty Images

Bruno

Photo by Eamonn McCormack/WireImage

Speaking of movies, check out Tom Cruise's latest pics for his upcoming movie Rock of Ages. Like, WOW! Talk about transformation. I am impressed. I am not a Tom Cruise fanatic, I think he seems kind of odd in his personal life but career wise he is a determined little fucker.
I can't believe this is actually him.

Credit MARIO SORRENTI for W

Late night activities

Things that keep me occupied in the AM hours? Photos. I have been going through hundreds of photos of myself from a recent shoot. You get a few really good pics and some really horrible ones. And then the rest. Kind of funny. After scrutinizing myself like this I know why teenage models are preferred for high fashion photo shoots......basically no body fat and fresh faced.
Chhaya is sprawled out in all her length next to me, she is sleeping and is fully immersed in a dream because she is whining loud and wagging her tail. I am thinking I am going to take out my contacts and go to bed fairly soon......

The customer is always right?

Are you all ready for another of my work stories? GOOD! Get your popcorn ready......
Last Saturday was busy but more important - I stayed busy. Some nights can appear busy, meaning there are a lot of people in the club but most of the girls are not making any money and the energy is low. And other nights there are not many guys in the club but the girls are still making money. You never know. I get annoyed when there are a lot of guys in there but they just kind of sit there like deers in headlights - BLEH.
Anyways, I was sitting at the bar, relaxing and watching a movie on the big screen when some old guy came up to me and asked if I could come and sit with him and threw in the magic words "I will buy you a drink". I rolled my eyes while slowly putting on my heels. I could not care less whether somebody buys me a drink or not. But I didn't want to be rude, so I walked over and you never know.....it could end up being an interesting conversation or somewhat profitable. Well, within a minute I was ready to leave, he was drunk, annoying and bitter - so I quickly excused myself, I do not need money that bad.
At some point after that I was making a round. Meaning walking around asking for dances. I walked up to some guys, smiled and introduced myself, did some minimum small talk and asked for a dance. One of the guys thought that I shouldn't be so to the point and sit down instead and talk for a while. No thanks. See, I am not always in the mood to have lengthy conversation with guys, getting "interviewed" - it is sometimes annoying, exhausting and does not always lead to getting any dances. So I said NO and sashayed away and sat down with some other guy that I had talked to earlier that was funny and actually spent some money. See, I do not mind talking - if it's fun or interesting.
That one guy that thought I should sit and talk to him followed me, came up and told me he thought I was rude and that the customer is always right. LOL. Ok, what customer? I told him to take a good look at me and informed the fellow that I, Tatiana is ALWAYS right in the club. I decide on who I want to talk to or not and for how long, I decide, nobody else. I am rude for asking for a dance too quickly? Whatever. I told him to leave me alone and go find some more agreeable dancer. I am not that dancer, I am way too bossy and sassy and I think that dancers in general should be more like that. And there are plenty of guys that get dances after I approach them with only a smile and a "YOU NEED!?".
Some guys come in and think they can say and do whatever they want because they happen to be in a strip club. No honey, maybe you can treat your old lady like that but not me. Some dancers are scared to lose out on money and suffer through all kinds of abuse. Me, I demand respect first, the money comes second, I am not desperate for it.
Like the other night, I observed a girl I work with sit at the bar with a drunk and obnoxious guy. He tried to shove his hands forcefully down her crotch a few times, she giggled and squirmed. That would not happen to me. He would be sorry he even tried to come close to my panties with his fingers. Has anyone ever made a surprise move and grabbed me someplace unwanted in the club? Yes. A few times, very few. And I have always made sure to make it PERFECTLY clear to them that I am not ok with that.
Oh, the girl with the obnoxious guy did not get any dances from the whole ordeal, just some liquor. There you go, sitting through painful, boring or traumatizing conversations is so NOT worth it.
One more thing......I don't have customers. It's not like somebody is buying some merchandise from me, like a gallon of milk at Safeway or something. I think it is funny when girls talk about their "customers". Poor guys, little do they know........
And then those girls get upset and possessive when some other girl might even look in their "customers" direction or (gasp!) says hello. I could not care less if a guy gets 30 dances from me one week and ends up getting dances from some other girl next week, whatever - that is his prerogative.
The guy is not my husband or boyfriend, therefore he can do whatever he wants. Besides, I don't know what he got going on with that dancer, some girls promise dates, phone numbers.......you name it, in order to get a dance. I don't offer any of that.
Well, it's about 10 PM here and I am curled up on the couch with my girl. Thinking about whipping up a late night snack, maybe some pancakes?
Mmmmmmm........sounds yummy!

Some pics from my archives.....

Here are some pics of ME. I have a similar pic up on the blog already, but not the same.
It's another Monday.....I am slowly getting in the mood to start my day. I don't have any plans as of yet but the sun is shining and I feel great.

Photographer WOLF189.

HUH?

So I have a feature in my blog admin that tells me who the top referrers to my blog are. I have not really paid too much attention to this, until tonight. It told me that one of the referrers is THIS
So I had to take a look, of course and it is a site with pics of people in hot springs all over the world. I loooove going to hot springs! I started scrolling through the pics and hello.......there I am, April 21. Big smile, one leg up, sitting in a hot spring in Colorado. It says the pic was posted by me, but I did NOT submit my pic, somebody else did. Now I am curious to who? And whoever did it might as well put up the pic of me at Chena hot springs too. Then my pic got re blogged and ended up HERE
I looked at some of those pics and it is basically a ton of naked girls, some men, mostly frolicking at nude beaches, looks like many Europeans, interesting and some of the pics are great. Though I suspect that many of the people (girls) had no idea that somebody was taking their pic, while naked.....and now they are all over some internet site.
I also learned about Melozi hot springs in Alaska, never heard of the place before, looked it up......seems like a great place but too much off the beaten path for me I think. I have been to Chena and Manley hot springs in Alaska. Then there is a place called Circle hot springs too and some other hot springs called Tolovana, off the beaten path too. Too bad that I live so far away from any of the hot springs that I am aware of because i would go more often.
I am a nudist too, in certain settings. In case you haven't figured that out yet......

Chena

Pic borrowed from http://www.chenahotsprings.com/

Bubbles

Relaxed this evening in a bubble bath. Before the bubbles, I soaked in epsom salt for about 15 minutes. Supposedly good for sore muscles and also
a long list of other things. My muscles are always sore......

Watched The Apprentice later on. I want Clay Aiken to win, I think he is a sweetie. Though I like Arsenio Hall too but I wanted Aubrey O'Day to compete against Clay. That would had been interesting.
Been reading up on a mushroom called CHAGA. Found out about it last night at work. Very interesting stuff, you should read about it too.
I think all the cures to all the diseases exist in nature.

http://www.chagamushroom.com/

New Bra

This is my latest addition to my lingerie drawer at work. Got it in New York at Victoria's Secret. Size 34 B, slightly padded, kind of creamy color with a hint of blush and covered in small sparkly rhinestones. Dream Angels limited edition, price $ 98.00.
I like it. My new fave bra, until I get another one.
Wore it at work last night paired up with my light pink colored Honey Dew's with black trim. Accessories some Nadri drop earrings, silver belly chain and silver anklet with a butterfly. The usual 7'' heels.

Saturday

It's Saturday evening and Tatiana is laying in bed, she is going to take a quick 15 minutes or so power nap before she hops in the shower and gets ready for work. Today was kind of a busy day, Tatiana even managed to go to Kaladi twice, the first time to get an extra hot natural vanilla latte and the second time for an iced natural vanilla latte with whipped cream. Took care of some errands this afternoon. Tatiana even went for a 20 minute run with some weights strapped around her ankles. But now she is crashing and needs a nap.
Had an annoying moment with a fellow employee at the club last night. This person wants to count Tatiana's money for her and give her larger bills in exchange for the one dollar bills, without even asking if it's ok with Tatiana first. Well, Tatiana thinks this is strange and she is not ok with it. She already told this person to please leave her money alone, she is fully capable of picking up the bills, smoothing the crumpled ones out and exchanging the smaller bills for larger ones - thank you very much. There is no need for somebody else to be digging through her cash, especially a person she hardly knows. Not that Tatiana has anything against this person but she wants to handle her own money. Right?
Well, that didn't go over very well with the person last night, she had a small fit when Tatiana reminded her once again to just let her handle her own money. Whatever! The day Tatiana is too confused to handle her money at work, she is retiring. Until then, do your job and Tatiana will do hers.

Muy Caliente

Oooooh, I loved Jennifer Lopez's performance the other night, she sang her new song "Dance Again" and showed off her beautiful figure in a body suit. YUMMY looking woman. Somebody I know called her "porky". No, ICH DON'T THINK SO honey! Jennifer is 42 and looks better in the face and body than many girls half her age I've seen shaking their doughy bits in various clubs I worked at. Or that are shlepping around town here where I live. Sure, Jennifer can afford personal trainers, food made for her, beauty treatments like VelaSmooth, the best facials, botox etc......but still I think she is MUY CALIENTE! Her face is flawless. She is curvy, sexy and she can MOVE, I like that. And she looks HAPPY.
Porky? It's EASY to be skinny in your teens and early 20's. I was super skinny when I was 20. To have a nice body later in life takes some good genetics and maybe an exercise regimen. Taking diet pills, starving yourself or snorting meth and/or coke doesn't count in my book. Anybody can be skinny on the meth diet. Try to be on the no diet like I am. Then we can talk.
Do I like Casper, he new boyfriend? Not so much, I think he looks like a dorky duck, reminds me of Jon Cryer somehow.
But then, I never cared for any of her men. Marc Anthony reminds me of a skinny shrimp. Ben Affleck looks like a dumb neanderthal. Diddy reminds me of a goat and he supposedly cheated on her. The other two she was married to, nothing to even mention.
But at least she is economically independent and can support this Casper guy. It seems like they have lots of fun together -for now. And it's not like she can't pay her rent and also takes care of her man, I've seen plenty of girls do this - not a good idea long term.

Friday!

TGIF? Most people love it that is is Friday but for me that usually means work. I don't really mind though......I have not worked since last Friday. The schedule of a dancer can be very random. My schedule means - I work when I want to and I like it like that.
My only everyday responsibilities are taking care of my Chhaya and getting myself a vanilla latte.
It is another cold and lovely day here in Kenai.........very uplifting for the mood!
My plans for the first part of the day are take Chhaya out for a quick pee, fold some laundry, mop the kitchen floor and then go and get my latte. Later Chhaya and I are going for a long walk. And in the evening I need to get ready for work and head over there.
Got another e mail regarding a request for an interview.......this time from a North America Correspondent with German TV station. He wanted to meet up with me if I was still in Williston. I think this is the fourth project I had to turn down, people find my blog - think I am still in Williston because they google something North Dakota related and one of my blog entries about Williston come up. But then they do not bother to look to the current blog entries or the date of the old entry and think that I am still in Williston.
Well, I might go back there but not anytime soon.
And no, I do not know any girls working there currently, if I did have a friend there working I would gladly set her up with a meeting for a possible interview. I have to say that the last time I was there (a few months ago) most the women I came across in the two clubs were rather unfriendly. But that's ok - I went there to make money, not to make friends with half crazy single Moms with a drinking problem.
Not that all the girls were like that but the ones that were - stood out like sore thumbs. Not my type of friends.
So noooooooooo to all the magazines, film crews etc - I am not in Williston. You will have to scout out your own talent there - good luck!
Or you can always come and interview me in Alaska.