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Week 16 & 17

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 04 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

The days and weeks are going by so fast it all becomes a blur. And I did not take any pictures these two weeks except one. This picture for week 16, of the earplugs in my hand. Sometimes (especially on weekends) the club is SO loud. Yea it is REALLY annoying actually, like torture. I just put in earplugs to escape the noise. I need to remember to do it more often.

Somebody wrote me a poem. It is actually from a few weeks ago but I will include it now. I guess the poem came about because he (a nice man that comes in once in a while) said "What am I supposed to do with you" and my response was "Ask Chat GPT"......and I guess it sounded like "Ask Chad Geepiti" to him at first. LOL! Anyhow.....the poem is great. He showed it to me on his phone so I took pictures of it to save it forever.

Ummmmmm what else? We had a couple of new girls but they only lasted like two shifts.
Week 17. This week one of "our" girls quit because she moved. No more purgatory torture for her - LUCKY her!
The new Exotic magazine came out at the beginning of the month. And in it there is a recurring column called "Tales From The DJ Booth" written by some strip club DJ guy called DJ HazMatt. This month he writes about "12 Rules For Stripping". And I never thought I would see a man actually recognize and APPRECIATE that less can many times be more. So I guess we are on Rule 5 this month, which is titled "Show Less, Make More". Unfortunately I work in a club where majority of the clientele consists of Larry The Cable Guy, Wrestlemaniac and Kyle Rittenhouse fans type guys and lookalikes and most of them are just not sophisticated enough to appreciate a certain type of classy and finesse. They appreciate when girls rip off their underwear ASAP and spread eagle, exposing EVERYTHING down below which is something that I do not do. But to go back to the article in Exotic.....headlines like "Your Body is a Steakhouse, Not a Buffet" and "There Are Degrees To Nudity, so Learn to Edge" are written. And, "Nude is nude; it doesn't have to be graphic" and "While buffet dancers are busy treating their customers like their gynocologists, your job as the steakhouse is to put a top-shelf price tag on any part of your body that would get flagged for reoval by Instagram", also "If you are required to get fully naked on stage at a club, do so in a way that would blend more into a Playmate Video calendar than something you'd see in a human anatomy textbook". YES to all of that. I do not take anything off on the stage since a while now. And I never understood why girls rip off their bra two seconds after they step on the stage and in nude clubs take off their underwear on the first song out of two or evenworse, on the first out of three songs. Just WHY? It is called strip tease but that is overlooked and forgotten. Or to (again) quote the article, "It's a "flash" dance and a strip "tease", not a "speculum simulator" or a "cave dive". Again, a man wrote this, which is surprising but once you work in a strip club for a while, after the initial shock and excitement dissipates you will start observing stuff and start paying attention to details.
When I would take my top off on stage in either topless or nude clubs it would be on the second song out of two. If/when I did take the bottoms off it would be on the last song. NEVER on the first. Then I decided to stop taking anything off. We do NOT have to take anything off on the stage. To me the clientele we have are so boorish that if somebody wants to see more they have to pay more. It is what it is.

When dancers start yapping about that they dance because they just LOVE performing yet they hurry out of their outfit, all of it, on the first song I always smirk. If you truly love to perform only as an exotic dancer you hold off with taking off your outfit and/or you seek out clubs where a lot of emphasis is put on the performance part.
I am ONLY at this club because the no touching is strictly enforced. If all the clubs would be no touching I would be at a different club with hopefully more sophisticated clintele. We have a few good ones, like the poem guy. Some men do actually appreciate the less is more principle.

Week 15

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Recap of week 15. This is like the third of fourth (I lost count) weekend in a row when the club is empty or almost empty on a Friday or both Friday and Saturday around 11 pm. When people eventually do come in they look around with a worried expression on their face and ask if it is always this slow. No sir, we killed everybody and put the bodies in the basement. Please join the fun!
I entertained myself by taking pictures of myself. Suck it in and arch the back.
Somebody asked me if I have an eating disorder, because I am so thin. I promise, I do not have an eating disorder. I do not diet, no Ozempic.I love food and eat a lot actually. I do not think that I am alarmingly thin, I am (for me) on the heavy side right now. Lots of flesh to grab on to. I also do not exercise and my arms and thighs are flabby. I am too lazy to exercise.

We have like five reminders in differents spots around the stage that people need to tip. Just in case they forget you know......it is so easy to completely lose any and all brain activity when naked, or in my case almost naked, girls prance around on a stage in front of you.

I got a new outfit. When I bought it I was feeling kind of MEH and thinking that I hope I won't be buying these kinds of outfits for much longer. But you never know. I might be sitting here ten years from now writing about some other outfit that I got for the club.....anyhow, here is the outfit. You cannot try these on in the store, you buy them and hope for the best.

And although pretty it is not long enough for me in the torso. I am hoping to be able to pull on in to stretch it out so it fits better.

I got new books.....yeay! Sita's (Kaylin) newest "Anything But A Boring Life" and "Face Value" by Christine Macdonald. Both authors used to dance. I have Sita's first two and I have written about her books in the blog.

A guy from Sweden came in this week. That was FUN! He was super nice and we conversed in Swedish. He actually got a 10 out of 10 on how men should behave when they visit a strip club.
And now to how you should NOT behave in a strip club. Two couples came in together, so two men and two women. They happened to be hispanic but I have seen similar displays of this behavior with white couples as well. The women had clearly never been to a strip club before. Which is fine if you act normal. But they did not act normal. They were turning away from the girl on stage while laughing and making ugly faces. One of them flipped off the girl on stage, like held her middle finger up towards her for a good 30 seconds. The girl on stage was very patient while the rest of us just watched the spectacle unfold. I would had not approached them whatsoever had I been on stage. In fact there was a couple in during the week that were sitting at the stage. And they were tipping and having fun. When It was my turn the woman was talking about me in a way that I interpreted as not ok so I stayed away from them and I told them to get a lap dance with one of the other dancers instead. Meaning instead of sitting at my stage talking shit, go be useful somewhere else. The woman right away had to loudly inform me that although she thought I was beautiful I was not THAT beautiful and in fact I was a bitch. Ok......whatever.
Go away, you had too much to drink and you are trashy. And then they had to complain to the bartender about me. Oh no......I am shaking in my 8 inch heels! I tell people to file a complaint with the Better Business Bureau if they are not happy.
I was talking about these situations with one of the girls that I work with and she said that a group of people had laughed at her Friday night. She is beautiful and super nice to every customer, not at all confrontational and snarky (like me). I don't know what's wrong with some of the abusive individuals that insist on going to strip clubs when clearly it is not the right environment for them to be in. Stay at home please.
I think I loudly exclaimed to myself different versions of "what am I doing here" about 30 times or more during Saturday's painful shift. I so wish for something else but it is what it is right now......
Our sign this week. I added the happy.

Week 14

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 06 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Week 14. On April 1st we announced our latest dancer to join our team - Moya. Isn't she pretty? She has human like warm skin, maintains eye contact and smiles. She is perfect! Moya can be there as soon as the doors open, she will never be bored, always acts interested and nobody has to point out to her to smile. I think that she will do very well.

The other excting event is that I retired another pair of slippers and got a new pair. The new pair are the brown fluffy fake fur ones. Very comfortable. Found them at Ross.

I talked for a while to a guy that had never been to the club before. He declared that the club was the weirdest club he had ever been to. Ya, I kind of agree. It is like my top three for weirdest clubs as well. Then he pointed out that it was freezing in the club and that it was especially cold in the lap dance room. He was correct on that observation as well. The club is more often than not cold and drafty and the lap dance room sometimes has the same temperature as a walk in freezer. I am almost always cold while I am at work. And I often loudly express how COLD I am. Yea I am sure it gets annoying to listen to but WTF turn up the heat a couple of notches, if dudes that are dressed in pants and jackets point out that it is cold......how do you think the dancers feel?
Then I managed to go home with a whole $11 on Saturday. At least 11 is my special number. Perhaps it is time do set up a Tati GoFundMe, I mean......why not?

Week 11, 12 & 13

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Wed, 01 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Week 11 the most memorable thing was on Friday night when we were about to close and two guys barged in, breathing heavy and out of breath and informed us that they had ran from a bar downtown to us, just to be able to see us before we closed. Why did they not take a cab you might wonder? It is because there are only a few cabs in town and you sometimes have to wait a long time for one. Sometimes it is faster to run to your desired location. One of the boys, only 21 had never been to a strip club before. And he asked me for a lapdance and he was very sweet. And then at the end he asked if he could pray for me. That was a first....I think? I was like......go ahead. Curious to hear what he was going to come up with. And it was not like one of those judgy things like, Oh Lord save this woman from her sinful ways. It was more like, Lord protect this person with your Light. More like that. It's been like almost three weeks since this happened and my memory is getting a bit fuzzy. But yes the boy prayed for me and we shared a nice moment.
Week 12. One of our fun and nice regulars that we call Torvo brought me eggs produced by his hens. I make hard boiled eggs for Kaya. That is a recycled egg container and not Torvo's farm.

The whole week consisted basically of baby sitting visitors of all ages. One guy that was at my stage, when he found out that I am from Sweden......he had a mini meltdown and loudly declared how much he wants to move somewhere else and not live in the US anymore. I let him speak his mind because I could sense how emotional the topic was for him. At the end I gave him a hug. That is basically what he needed, to be heard and a hug. Right then and there it felt better. Dancers are therapist.
I've had several people ask me if I can take them to Sweden to live since a while now. I might take a lucky one one day.....
Week 13. Another first for me. Younger foreign guy came in with an older US guy. The younger guy was 22 and from a country in Asia (South Asia to narrow it down some). Lived in the US for about two years. Never been to a strip club before. He sits at the stage through the whole rotation of girls and then sits away from the stage with his friend. When I go up again he comes to the stage and at the end of my set asks me if I can give him a lap dance. Then he tells me that as soon as he walked in and saw me he knew that I was it, in his words "you are it" for him. I talked to him during the several dances we did and of course he asked me for "a date". Nothing personal but I don't date. It is exhausting enough to be around people (men) in the club. I need my alone time and Kaya time. I simply told him that I am busy and don't date, which is the truth. He asked like 10 more times. Then he said he does not want me be a dancer anymore, had to make sure that I was properly covered up before I went out on the floor, said that the second girl he will love besides me is going to be our daughter that we will name Roti.
A combination of his name and mine. His friend was super funny and was laughing about the absurdity of the whole situation. The friend jokingly (?) offered to be my sugar daddy and the 22 year old right away offerend to be my sugar daddy as well to which the older guy replied that the 22 year old does not have the sugar that I want. The 22 year old was confused to the meaning of the sugar. And the old man was correct. The only sugar I am interested in at this point is currency. The 22 year old was serious about me being "it" for him and even yelled at the bartender about me and him getting married, we are going to be together for several decades he said. Ok then!
We also had two couples come in, the women were awful. Insecure and rude. Loudly asking stupid question, being judgmental. Again, none of us are interested in your husband. I promise. If you cannot deal with seeing attractive women with nice physiques with very little or nothing on then you should not visit a strip club, or the beach, or Miami.
Time for a public announcement! Did you know that lap dances are good for your health? It is true, Tati your new US Secretary of Health and Human Services says so and she would never lead you astray.

Amaye

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Sun, 15 Mar 2026 22:00:00 +0000

Last month I went to Amaye International Restaurant in Portland because I was curious about Somali tea and rice. So I asked a friend to join me and we went. Most of the dishes there have meat. They were out of the sambusas, so that must be a popular item on the menu. My rice was delicious. And the tea.......YUM! I decided that I will go back, even if it is only to have the tea.

I am very happy to announce that the houseless cat that I have been feeding since last summer and that took shelter underneath the building I live in has found a safe home. This poor cat has been living on the streets for like nine years from what I have gathered. Not anymore. Look at him......enjoying a nap not having to worry about anything.
Please spay and neuter your pets, or do not breed your pets. Be a good pet parent and be kind to all animals. I would had totally taken Tiggy (what I named him) in but Kaya feels differently about that.

Here is my little Sol de Janeiro tower. The Bum Bum cream I use at work. I put it on my arms, thighs and butt cheeks and scrunch it into the ends of my hair. For the scent. BUT the formula has changed, the Bum Bum cream used to smell so much better, the cream was thicker. Of course it did not change for the better. Sol de Janeiro should listen to the consumers, there are so many complaints out there pointing out that the Bum Bum cream is not what it was.
The two other creams, Delicia Drench and Beija Flor I put on my neck and décolettage before work and at night before bed.

Week 10

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 09 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Here is the recap of week 10's community service. Wednesday started out rough. First set on stage first shift of the week and I had to yell at an idiot to stop looking at me and stop talking shit. This particular predator has been coming in since I started at the club. He used to come in with a sad looking girlfriend and just sit at the end of the bar, down one beer after another and stare at us, the girlfriend kind of just sitting there patiently waiting to leave. I would always give her kind eyes and glare at him. His attitude sucks. Then he started coming in with another girlfriend. And repeat what he did with the first. Poor girlfriends. And then he became friendly with the owner of the club, so he would come in a lot and sit and talk to her for hours and drink for free. Somehow he thinks that he is El Jefe or something, I don't know why. He is super gross and extremely annoying, does not spend a dollar on the girls, gets way too intoxicated, acts aggressive with the customers in the club and acts inappropriate with the dancers that are foolish enough to spend more than one minute on him. He was in there from the beginning of the night until the end, pathetic idiot.
Anyhow.....one guy remembered me from last time he was in there about a year or so ago. I vaguely recalled him. He said that I am just amazing and so talented. Ehhhhh ok. Yes yes very talented I know. I do as little as possible and move slow like a sloth. And the he said that our little club is his favorite place to be in the world and that he think it is just so much fun and wholesome. That was cute. He was nice, normal and well behaved. Thank You for acting normal. Normal behavior is almost rare nowadays. We have a new sign up.

Then we had another painfully slow Friday. I felt warm and then I was freezing. The club was cold. Again.
A guy that attended last week's Fisher Poets Gathering event was in. So I asked him to write a poem about us. And he did! The Fisher Poets Gathering has been going on since 1998, it is a thing.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fisher_Poets_Gathering

So sweet! We need more poems about us.
Later on in the evening a drunk disheveled lady with Theresa Caputo hair stared at me and loudly declared "she is old" and then she cackle laughed. I paid her no attention but I told the bartender that if she decides to say anything else about me I will throw my eight inch heel on her and knock the wig off her head. I might be old but I am not ugly. AND LISTEN UP, I have worked with all kinds of dancers ranging from 18 to 60 plus. Ranging from super skinny to large. I would NEVER EVER go in to a strip club as a visitor/customer, look at the girls and loudly talk about them. This club attracts the worst gutter dwellers. If I could find a club in the area with strictly NO touching I would happily go there. Like tomorrow.
The worst thing about this club is the type of customers that come in, so many, TOO MANY, of them are the most annoying simple minded idiots. And then this boy came in that only comes in for me. I call him boy because he is like 23, nice and he is actually good looking. Which is a bonus because that is rare as well. He said that that if I am not in there he will walk out.
I guess he doesn't think that I am old.
In fact, if I could figure out something else to do that is NOT soul crushing I would no longer dance. Because the idiots are not worth even me breathing in their direction.

Today

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Wed, 04 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Today I had to go to the grocery store, two different ones.....I do not like being in the grocery store. Too noisy. Too many people meandering around, yes I know that I am one of them. I feel like a sheep in a herd. Then I had to pay bills, do all that stuff one has to do in order to live in society.....and there are days when I just do not want to do any of that. In fact most days I do not want to do adulting. Because adulting mostly sucks. Who enjoys getting gas, grocery shopping, paying bills, dealing with rent and/or mortgage payments, checking and answering emails, laundry, work, driving in mind numbing traffic.....and it just goes on and on. Barf. I just want to be a stay at home pet mom at this point and do as little adulting as possible.
BIG yeay for bagless grocery stores. I think it is ridiculous when people buy one or two items and want a bag. For what? You cannot carry those items without putting them in a bag? Bring your own bag. Some stores offer recycled boxes to put the items in, that works too. Do I use my own bags......of course.

One of my lattes this week. Note to self - I should bring in my reusable cup more often. I am planning on drinking coffee at home in bed for the rest of the week until Sunday. And next time I go to the coffee shop I am bringing in my own cup.

Next week I have to go to the DMV......definitely not looking forward to that.

Week 8 & 9

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 02 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Not much to mention about week 8. One of the frequent and nice visitors that comes in to the club took a longer break and we were atually worried that he was sick or something worse but he came back this week. It was good to see him again. He is one of the few that you can have a conversation with without suffering.
Week 9. Ugh. This week a girl quit due to getting insulted by the owner of the club. Another girl is taking a break or quit. We have a new girl but I have not worked with her yet. And since a couple of weeks we have another new girl that I forgot to mention until now.
Friday night at 9 20 pm the club was empty, except for us girls and the bartender. It was a bad night, it was a bad week. Friday a really nice man told me to pick out some rocks for myself, he carries a pouch with rocks on him. He comes in once in a while, he has a crystal hanging in his beard. Very interesting person, kind of reminds me of a wizard from Lord of the Rings.
I picked these. That was the highlight of the evening.
Probably the highlight of the week.

Since I am bored out of my mind like 80% of the time that I suffer in the wooden box I have to entertain myself somehow with my very childish humor. The banana peels we use to slap dudes with when they don't tip us enough.
Another way we entertain ourselves is to make up a club language. We do laugh a lot. People that come in probably think we are like legit insane and I like that, they can think that. This particular club is basically like a mental asylum. And I am not joking when I say that.

Saturday was a decent night but I spent a lot of time in the dressing room just hoping the night would be over. I actually did not want to be there ever again. The club was ice cold when I arrived and for several hours afterwards. Not the first time it is like that either. I just wanted to be at home and warm. My last stage set of the night was fun and my best stage that whole week. Two girls came in that were very pretty, very nice and fun and they sat at the stage. So it took until the last stage set of the week to actually have a decent stage. I am over it. My soul was hurting this whole week. In there. In the wooden box.

Stale

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Wed, 25 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Yesterday I got some croissants. The expiration date/best before date on the box said February 27 so I was thinking they would be fresh enough. When I opened the package this morning I discovered that all four croissants were stale. Ewwwww like no. I was hungry and put two in the oven with some butter on them hoping that it would do it. I could barely eat one and took a bite out of the other. Selling stale baked goods and bread at full price is just not ok.
Some coffee shops do that too. You order a scone/muffin/baked goods and take a bite and that thing is like a brick. Sold for like $7. If the stuff is stale it should be sold at half price IF THAT as yesterday's goods. Better yet given away for free to the hungry. Anyhow. I decided to take the box of croissants back to the store for a full refund. Tired of spending $ on stale stuff.
I looked up the issue online first and found out that I am not the only one with a similar opinion about this store's baked goods. I don't think I will ever get croissants from that store again. Do better than selling stale food. Or like I said, sell it for less than half price or give it away to the hungry.
It should be ILLEGAL for grocery stores to throw away food that you can still eat. I think some places are making an effort and give away the safe to eat food to food banks. As they should. I do not like wasting food.

Sometimes I use an app called Yuka to check the quality of the stuff that I consume. It is a free app that scans the barcode on food and cosmetic products and rates them from excellent to poor. I like it, other people don't. For example......the juice on the left is about $3 more than the juice on the right. I like the juice on the right and according to Yuka it is also the better choice out of the two.

The 2026 Winter Olympics.....! Did you watch? I only watched the figure skating. Very impressed with Ilia Malinin and Alysa Liu. Born in the US, children of immigrants. Alysa's Dad, Arthur Liu's story is impressive as well.
Now I am going to eat apples and watch Dateline. And then I am going to take a bath and wash my hair. Dateline is great and also sad because of all the victims, mostly female victims. That is where I learn about all the pretend righteous often church going folks that do things to others that I would never ever imagine doing.

Week 7

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 16 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0000

There is only one shift to say something about this whole week and it is Saturday February 14, which was Valentine's Day.
I was not supposed to work but decided that I needed to because I made very little money my other shifts this week. So I reluctantly went in and had a decent night. I brought in chocolate for everybody.

Wait....Friday a group of three guys came in with beautiful red long stemmed roses for all of us and cute little cards. I kept the cards and gave my roses to Siren at the end of the night. I do not keep cut flowers at home because I feel bad for them. But it was very sweet of them to do that and all three (the guys that gave away the roses) were very nice. Much appreciated.
So the other shifts I had were bad but Saturday night two guys came in and said that they only come in for me. I wish they would come in more often, the admireres I have that only come in for me. Cause there are a handful of them and I don't even remember their names, I am really bad at remembering names I will confess to that. Two completely different guys, one of them is constantly telling me that I get him very excited. I don't enagage too much in those kinds of conversations because I don't know what to say. I kind of just laugh and say really.....? The other one told me that he is almost in love with me and wants to talk about more serious stuff. Both are sweet in their own ways.
We also had a lot of couples in both Friday and Saturday.

And that was Valentine's Day weekend. The next day all the roses, boxed up chocolates, teddy bears and all that other stuff that gets promoted before Valentines' Day go on sale. I think it is better to wait until the day after Valentine's Day to make any purchases but I am frugal like that.

Week 5 & 6

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 09 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Week 5.....The slimy guy came in Friday (and Saturday). He can't get enough of us. Friday night he declared to me that I would not be able to handle him. Like who said that I would want to? No way ever. He got pretty drunk as usual and at one point he decided that trying to walk into our dressing room would be a good idea. He did not make it far. And on his way out of the club, when he finally decided to leave he walked by me while I was sitting with two of my co workers and he pointed at me and said that I am the devil. Ok then. Let's see how long before he gets to take a break from us, as in getting 86d.
Saturday was a very loud night, people drinking and a lot of making noise. It took until my last time on stage right before closing to have a decent stage set.
Lavender that usually only smiles no matter what, actually yelled at people twice for just standing around and looking for free. A couple stood by the stage while she was dancing and stared at her, so she smiled at them and friendly motioned to them to sit down and join her and they shuddered like NO WAY EWWWW and continued staring at her so she yelled at them to go away. If you are standing next to the stage looking at the girls or sitting at the stage you have to tip the dancers. If you are sitting away from the stage minding your own business nobody will bother you to tip.
I had to tell a guy to please sit still cause he was moving around so much while i was in front of him and his friend on stage. Like he was bobbing in and out around me every other second, wildly moving his arms around. So much so that when I moved my legs my heel connected with his forehead, not hard, no blood or anything but still, I do not want to bop people in the head with my heels by mistake. So I had to stop and tell him to please not move around so much. Of course every time you scold somebody they act offended.
Week 6. Swedish Word Of The Day.

Marilyn (a girl I work with) said that she fake laughed a lot Friday. And that the only time she really laughed is when I was telling jokes. I can't recall what I was joking about but we were sitting around in a group talking, eating and having fun. Two people ordered us pizza and breadsticks. Thank You nice people! We appreciate you a lot! Feed The Strippers!
Saturday was pretty busy and crazy. I have a devoted fan that is very nice and thinks I am like the best thing ever. He came in both Friday and Saturday and declared that I am the most perfect specimen of a woman that he has ever seen. He should see me when I am bumming around during the day.......Another guy thought I was just gorgeous. And another one came up twice to say that he thought that my stage performance was just beautiful. Some nights everybody is all over you and other nights people say you look like an old lady and you leave with $8 profit.
It was a fun night but rowdy. The guy that me and Siren defended from the two dudes that wanted to beat him up (last week) came back and expressed his gratitude.
Unfortunately the bully guy that pushed one of our nice and fun regulars a few weeks ago came in twice this week with his dumb friends. I am disappointed that he is allowed back in. I totally avoid and try to ignore him and a few more girls do too, the ones that were at the club the night of the incident. He is a total asshole bully. And the guy he pushed has not been in since that happened and we all really like him and we are worried that maybe he got injured. I think that the bully guy is an accident waiting to happen. He is just looking for a reason to act out. He tried to start something with me last night while I was talking to another regular that I consider a friend and we just looked at him like ???? and he kept on going on and on until I decided to call for the bartender to put an end to it and as soon as I did he walked away back to his group.
Anyhow......last night's shine.

Housing For All

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Wed, 04 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0000

This evening I went to a meeting here in town addressing what to do with the many homes that sit empty year round while there is a housing shortage and also rent is unaffordable for many. It is no joke. If you survive on a single income you better have money. Or you need to have a partner of some sort to share living expenses with, live with family or a roommate or several rommates. And not everybody has a partner or wants to live with roommates. I know of many people that work full time that struggle with rent. You should be able to survive on one income with no problem, not too much to ask I think.
I believe in affordable housing for all. I believe that a roof over one's head is a basic human right. The suggestion brought up on tonight's meeting is to put a tax on homeowners with homes that sit empty for most of the year. I am totally OK with that. Other cities in the country are already doing this. And the income generated from that tax would go towards improving the housing situation for the local people in town that are in some sort of need. Basically.
I also think that large unused commercial buildings should be put to use. Either converted into housing or affordable storage units. Many churches have a lot of space and can put up people that need a roof over their head. Unless you WANT to be houseless you shouldn't have to be. Yea I know it is a complex issue and it is not my job to figure it out. I am far from an expert but I do care and I want to work for a change.

Week 3 & 4

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 26 Jan 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Week 3 was like one of the worst weeks ever with a mix of people on the verge of a crazy.
Tuesday I left with $8. After like being there for seven hours, seven hours in purgatory. You just never know how the night will pan out.

The Starbucks was the highlight of the evening Wednesday. All of us got Starbucks to try to easy the torture of being locked up in the cold wooden box. And I finished the Bum Bum cream. I think I will get another one, although the company that makes the Bum Bum cream, Sol de Janeiro changed the formula a while back. It does not smell nearly as good as it used to when I first started getting it. Disappointing. Because it really smelled amazing like back in 2021 and I noticed last year
(I think) that it wasn't the same. It was a dancer at Riverside, Breezy that introduced me to the Bum Bum cream. I liked Breezy, she was fun.
A group of two men and two women came in, sat at the bar, drank beer, stared at us for like over two hours and talked about us. None of us interacted with them. I overheard some of their conversation and it was just dumb. One of the guys described that when his lady friend's half and half was empty in the morning, so she did not have any for her coffee she could just put some of his semen in the coffee instead. That type of conversation. But then one of the dudes (the one with the semen) decided to loudly declare, while gesturing to the girl on stage, "that chick has been here like 10 years" in a condescending tone. Ya know cause nobody else is at a job for ten years? Unheard of! But facts are that the girl in question has not been at the club for ten years so I interjected and informed him that no, you are wrong she has not been here for 10 years. But if she had been here for 10 years or longer, what is it to you? I also added the dancer's name and told them that she is amazing.
He ERUPTED. I got called a cunt, a camel, he told his friends that he wanted to and was going to punch me in the face. I told him to go ahead. Cause if you do that you have no idea how fun your life will become..... His lady friend (poor wife/lady friend) tried to calm him down and not too long after his tantrum they left. I have no more comments because some people are just really stupid and that is all I can say on that.
Thursday was the best night of the week for me. We had nice people that spent some money and we were done by 11.
Friday another bad night, I left with $25. It was just painfully empty. But before the night was over two beefed up dudes came in with a girl. She tried to be sneaky and take a picture of us, which we noticed and she put the phone down. There was one nice and fun guy in spending money. All of a sudden the two beefy dudes decided they were going to beat up the nice guy because he must be an immigrant and they were going to call ICE too. Things got really heated for like two minutes. It was basically three dancers in tall heels against two aggressive dudes. We told them to get the fuck out. On the way out we got called ugly, gross and old. Ok whatever. Same insults as always when idiots have nothing better to come up with. Yes I am ugly, gross and old. I don't give a fuck what you think about me. I told them they were white trash. One of them started to yell at me that he is half Mexican. Oh yea.....kind of like Nick Funtes then? Whatever you white trash, get the fuck out.
Week 4. I worked three nights. The club was super cold all week. Thursday and Friday I have no recollection of. Must had been boring as usual then.
I was the first girl in on Saturday, there was a larger group already in the club. As soon as I got on stage they came up. There were like four women and four men. They acted kind of lame. One of the women was not happy with the music I played and decided to let me know. I politely informed her that I was not going to change the song halfway through. She started to act out a bit. So when I got off I put on Green Day "American Idiot" on full volume. You like that? Better music now? I thought that was REALLY funny and from now on that is what exactly what I will do when people act dumb. Then they can sit there and ponder the situation and look at each other. Yeay for Green Day at Superbowl by the way!
A guy not with the group wanted some dances and he was nice and normal. Like you should be. Don't act demanding and rude. Two weeks in the wooden box came and went.

Another 80s Dance Party

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Tue, 20 Jan 2026 00:00:00 +0000

This past Saturday I went to another 80s Dance Party evening at the Crystal Ballroom (in Portland). Only four hours, starts at 8 and ends at midnight, of pretty good music and a really fun atmosphere. I love that they are playing the music videos too.
I really like 80s Depeche Mode and they play that. I wore this MTV sweatshirt I found a few years ago.

I did Pet Pack on Sunday. I miss Pet Pack because I love helping out and I miss "my" people and their pets that come by, I wish I could participate more. Then I did errands as usual. Look at the color of these roses, so beautiful. A few days ago I got offered a bouquet of flowers at a store for the "good citizen of the day award" because of something I did. I politely declined the flowers for two reasons. First, I do not like cut flowers. Yes they are beautiful but flowers should be admired outside where they grow, not inside wilting away in a vase. I like inside plants in pots because they are alive. Second, I don't think you should be awarded for doing something that should be normal to do. Depends on the situation of course. You do something because it is the right thing to do. I am far from a perfect angel though......I do some not right things now and then but in my (selfish) opinion the wrongs that I do, do not harm individuals.

I got these coffees at Trader Joe's and made myself one this morning.

Week 2

nospam@example.com (TATIANA) — Mon, 12 Jan 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Here we go, week 2. Slow week all of it. Tuesday I do not recall anything about. Friday was calm. The only thing standing out in my memory was the group of two women and two men. Sat together at the stage. Asked intrusive questions, made stupid comments and humoring themselves and talked about the girls while we were on stage. Yea when I go to strip clubs (which is rare) I too have opinions about the dancers but I would never sit at a dancer's stage and talk about her while she is dancing, good or bad. If I have something to say, I direct my comments to the dancer directly and it would only be something good. Anything negative I will save for the ride home. Many people have poor social skills. Like I do not go to a coffee shop and stare at the barista while she is making my coffee and whisper loudly about her to my friend. ? It is RUDE. Dancers are human too, it is weird how many people put dancers in a seperate category from everybody else. I only danced on stage once while they were there. First the women decided that my hair must be extensions. They first discussed it amongst themselves before asking me. I corrected them.....not extensions, a cheap wig that I get at Sally's for $19.99. One of the women then said that I had inspired her to get extensions. LOL. The other woman said that I inspired her to work out. I do not work out.....but thanks. Then one of the guys wanted me to like give extra attention (wink wink) to one of the women. I could tell they were so out of their element and she was not really feeling it and neither was I, so I said that I am not into sexually assaulting people.
I kept my distance from them. Woooohooo you went to a strip club, how unusual!
Saturday too was slow. A guy came in, sat at the stage then at the bar and then he asked if we have any video lotto machines. No but the bar next door does I informed him. He said that he would go and try his luck and come back if he won. And he came back a few hours later, he got some dances with me. He was very nice. He called me "preciuos".
Around midnight a group of like 10 people made a loud entrance. Probably half of them were already intoxicated to the point that they should not have had anything more to drink but they got served anyways. I knew right away that they were going to be a problem. The women in the group were staring rudely at us. Listen......I PROMISE none of us want your knuckle dragger man, you can keep him all to yourself so RELAX. One of the guys was so over the top loud, looked like a sweaty, bulked out cage fighter and needed to show off his strenght by trying to arm wrestle and wanted to shake hands with innocent bystanders and squeezed their hands really hard while making loud unintelligible sounds. I hate that kind of behavior. Us girls were so annoyed by the whole group and the other patrons in the club were too growing more and more irritated with them as well. While I was doing a dance in the dance room things started to escalate out on the floor and when I came out people almost started to fight each other. There was some loud yelling, squaring off and pushing and the group that came in were told to get out. They had no business in there in the first place.
We do get way too many people that have no business of being at the club. So lesson here is, do not go to a strip club thinking it is just a bar because it is not. Do also not go there to trash talk the dancers. Do not go there if you are insecure and think that the girls want your man because we do not. And do not go there to show off your loud mouth and muscles because nobody is interested and it will ge you kicked out. Be normal, be polite and be appropriate. Appreciate the dancers and your night will be good.