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Snow And Shopping

Woke up to snow but that has all melted by now.

Decided to go shopping this afternoon. I think I am halfway done with this year's Christmas gifts. I also wanted to get a cleansing oil for my face. So I got the DHC Deep Cleansing Oil, a first time for me. Hopefully it works well. I want something that doesn't dry out my face when I wash it.
I also wanted to get La Roche-Posay Cicaplast Baume B5, I went to two Ulta locations and they were out and had none in stock. I also went to Target to look for it and they did not have it. So I will try to find it somewhere else. It is supposedly very moisturizing.
I got the La Roche-Posay Lipikar AP+M Triple Repair Moisturizing Cream (a body cream basically). I will slather it on tonight after I take a bath.
And two lip glosses by BUXOM, colors Sophia and Clair. I got a gloss for a friend as well (BUXOM Sophia).

And that was that. Came home. Made the Jennifer Aniston salad again. Decided to finally hand wash some clothes instead of just looking at them laying in a pile. Soon I will take a bath and force myself to send some work emails so I don't have to do it tomorrow. What kind of work emails? I have another job besides dancing but it is not as "exciting" as dancing so I rarely talk about it......Sometimes I am busy with that other job, other times not.

December 1, A Photo Shoot And A New Salad

Well here we are....the last month of the year has arrived. December 1 today. It IS true, time goes faster the older you get.
Sometimes (often actually to be honest) I think that death will be a reward. No more suffering here on earth. The only thing I am worried about is to die suddenly and leave behind pets. Yes....I think that life is "suffering" in different forms. Just like the Buddhist do.
I had a photo shoot today with professional lights and all. I did a shoot with Ann last year and we were so excited and thought we looked great. Then when we saw the pictures we could not believe how terrible both of us looked, like two haggard broads that seen better days. And Ann is 27 (now) and very pretty. I could understand if I looked like an old hag in the pictures but not Ann, she has a baby face still. We did not pick out a single picture from that shoot.
There were a few OK ones but only OK. Lighting is key. Bad lighting can make even a beautiful person look haggard unless you are a teenager.
Anyhow.....I have another shoot next weekend and supposedly they will paint my whole (?) body with glitter.
Today's shoot was about off the shoulder sweaters, drinking a hot beverage by the fire and being wrapped in white fabric. I hope I managed to get a few good ones. The people that took the pictures want to take more pictures of me and they paid well.

Afterwards I went grocery shopping. I felt cute cause I had mascara on today. See for yourself.

It was cold so I put my mössa on (Swedish for hat) and one of the guy's working at Trader Joe's saw it and started talking perfect Swedish with me. He spent 15 years in Sweden, he even pronounced Stockholm (my city) just like a Swede. Impressive!

I decided to make a new salad today, the Jennifer Aniston's Salad. Yeah....a bit of a weird name for a salad but it was absolutely delicious. So if you are in the mood for a delicious salad I highly recommend it! SO GOOD.

Of course I did not put any meat in the salad. And I did not use mint, not because I don't like mint. I was too lazy to look for it when I was grocery shopping. I used everything else.....quinoa, English cucumber, pistachios, garbanzo beans, red onion, feta cheese, parsley. The salad dressing was olive oil and lemon juice. I am planning on making this salad again on Saturday. I am already looking forward to it.

Miss Exotic Oregon

There are strip clubs scattered all over Oregon and since Portland is the largest city in the state you can find most of the clubs here. There are about 30 or so clubs in Portland.....of various sizes.
Every year dancers compete in the Miss Oregon Exotic competition and I went to check out the finale last night.
I think 18 girls performed (I missed the first one) and at the end the dancer that won last year, Phoenix did her thing.
Some of the dancers were meh but some were freakin' AMAZING. Just wooooow. Upon entering Dantes, where the competition was held you got handed a plastic bead necklace to give to your fave dancer.
I had like four or five favorites, my beads went to Nia that is a dancer at the Golden Dragon. I loved her energy and her smile.
Of course she was super pretty too and a really good dancer.
Towards the end she climbed up high on the pole and she lit the ends of her heels on fire, the lights got dimmed and all you saw were sparkles flying.
In order to place in this competition you should work on a theme/presentation besides just doing the normal two songs on stage with some pole tricks. I personally look at posture, how well the girls move and pole technique. I do not like jerky fast movements, I prefer slower and seamless.
Last year's winner Phoenix put on a whole rock show last night with singing and like 20 back up dancers.
One of the presenters was 2020s winner Axel (she won doing a Clockwork Orange theme) and the other presenter was a guy that puts on all the dancer competitions around town (there are several), they referred to all the competitors as dancers which I love. All the girls were appreciated verbally. I feel that stripper is somewhat derogatory and sometimes used by people that feel they are better than "some stripper". Newsflash bitch - you ain't better. You just sorry so sit down.
Anyhow.....great evening!

Thankful Every Day

It is one in the afternoon here on a Thursday in November which also happens to be Thanksgiving. My friend Ann spent the night and left a couple of hours ago. I am going to slowly go about my day.
No stress. No cooking anything from scratch except peeling potatoes (I leave most of the skin on the potatoes anyways), boiling them and making mashed potatoes. I am looking forward to eating the apple tart, the brussels sprouts and the red cabbage. Trader Joe's apple tart is AMAZING.

Need to feed the birds and the squirrels too.

Thankful every day for the comforts that I have. Water at the turn of a knob, a warm place to call home. Food to eat. Family and friends. Health. I wish everybody at least had the necessities like food and shelter. Everything else is extra.

As You Know

As you know I cannot stand people that litter and I am a fierce animal lover. Of course I am NOT the only one feeling strongly about littering and animals. I am glad that other do too.
This is what people mentioned when asked what they do not like about others.

That is the TRUTH spelled out right there. "Littering is the biggest sign that you have no respect for 1) the earth 2) the animals 3) your fellow human being. There's is no fucking excuse for littering."
I am AMAZED over how many people in the US litter. Americans are very quick to loudly declare how proud they are to be Americans but at the same time have NO problem to leave their trash behind all over the place in the beautiful country they supposedly love so much. That is hypocrisy right there!

And I like this one too. This is often what I hear after people ask me where I am from and I tell them......and then they proceed to tell me that they are Swedish or German or whatever country it might be. I'm like....ok so you were born there? No my great grandma was Swedish......well yea ok. So you speak Swedish then? No? Ok.
By the way, I like Robert's last name there. Not really his last name but if you know Polish then you know that the word "kurwa" is used A LOT. You need to be Polish to truly understand how to use it.
I have the luxury of being Polish and I understand these things.

Favorite movie anyone? FAVE movie made number one! I love this movie! It is BEAUTIFUL and SAD.
Other movies high on my list.....Breakfast Club and Lost Boys. Besides those three I like movies in general. There are so many good ones.
Favorite color? All colors are beautiful. Favorite food? I love food too much to have a favorite dish but I am partial to Polish food (pierogies and barszcz czerwony), also ice cream, Princess Cake and pies, especially the fruit pies you find in Sweden served with vaniljsås. And I love Indian food. I love food in general. No diets for me.


I did not want to get out of bed today......but I had to because of my commitment to Pet Pack. Sundays means Pet Pack for me, not every Sunday but most. Today I had to pick up a donation from Mud Bay. This is a chain of amazing pet stores. And they are very generous, they donate weekly to us. Today Mud Bay donated several bags of kibble for dogs and cats. Canned food. Toys. And a large brand new crate on wheels. I loaded up my car with everything and headed for Stumptown to get a latte.

At Stumptown they clipped my coffee card with nine stamps because I brought in my own mug. That means I will get a free latte next Sunday! Generous! Stumptown is my fave coffee shop in Portland.


The art theme for Burning Man 2023 was announced a few weeks ago - Animalia.
The first time I went to Burning Man was in 2013 after years of wanting to go. That first time I decided that I was going to try to go 10 years in a row as a start.....if I am lucky enough to be there next year that will be my 10 year in a row at Black Rock City in Nevada.
In 2020 I went to Baker Beach in San Francisco for the gathering there (Baker Beach is the place where the first Burning Man happened). In 2021 I went to Renegade Burn/Free Burn which was held at the regular location in Nevada. So if I do not count 2020 Baker Beach, then next year will be my 10th year.
And Animalia is so far my FAVORITE art theme so I am feeling EXTRA excited over it. I love animals and I hope with this this theme, which will be interpreted in many different ways of course because it is Burning Man after all, but I am hoping that it will bring more understanding and compassion for our fellow friends here on this planet -the animals. I think the future is vegetarian/vegan. In the future I think majority of the human population will look back at history and be disgusted with our treatment of animals.


Well I tested positive for COVID, I tested at home with one of those test kits that got sent out to every household a while back. This might be the second time I have COVID, the first time was almost two years ago, mid November 2020. So sit back and relax and I will tell you about all my COVID ailments just like your older auntie in Queens would do.
The first time (in 2020) I was sick for about three days. I did not get tested. I was basically sleeping, slurping soup and drinking tea the whole time I was sick. It's been two years after all and I don't really remember all the symptoms. But it was similar to this time around. Just like your older Auntie in Queens, I am now older and have started to develop some age related memory loss.
But here I am on day four, still alive and kicking and I can tell you ALLLLLL about my COVID symptoms.
Monday I started feeling a tickle in my throat which developed into a full on body ache, my eye sockets even ached, chills, all the hair follicles on my legs and arms ached throughout the night, the muscles in my back ached and I did not sleep well. I probably had a fever too but my thermometer is broken so I do not know for sure but my body felt hot. I took two headache pills the first full day/night with COVID.
Somebody please send Tati a thermometer!
Tuesday it all continued but instead of chills at night I was sweating. Another night of poor sleep. Oh and LOTS of peeing throughout this whole ordeal. Wednesday I woke up feeling OK, still felt sick but not that sick but later towards the evening I started sneezing and coughing.
And today is Thursday, the coughing and sneezing is accompanied by a runny nose. It actually hurts in my throat to sneeze. And my cough is deep. My nose feels hot inside, the right nostril feels sore. My hair follicles on my scalp are achy. My lips are chapped on the inside of the mouth somehow.
Have I been sick like this before? Yes I have. As far as I can remember. It feels like a full on cold/flu.
And in case you do not know yet.....I belong to the minority of unvaccinated people.

I might entertain you with some more sick stories one day. I have noticed that some people love to talk about their sicknesses and ailments. I don't really relate to them but to each their own.
I will continue this evening with blowing my nose and hopefully tomorrow I will be almost back to normal.


It rained like all day yesterday Halloween. I did not do much besides go out to a project I am working on to check out the progress on things. I love Halloween but I have not felt super enthusiastic about it lately. This is as festive as it got for me this year.....basically that is as festive as it has been for the last couple of years. Good for the people that have the energy to go all out with fun Halloween decorations.

And then I started feeling sick yesterday, it came on slowly like a tickle in my throat and yesterday evening I was just SICK. Like fever (I think), my eye sockets are hurting, body aches, every hair follicle on my arms and legs feels sore, chills. I am about to drink something cold and take another headache pill and hopefully get some rest. I could not get comfortable last night.


I am a happy human today, I saw BERNIE live! The minute I found out he was going to be in Portland I decided that I was going to be where he was planning on being which happened to be the Roseland Theatre.

I really like Bernie. I am of course a socialist, well actually a hardcore communist. On my spare time I devour The Communist Manifesto and Das Kapital. I can quote passages from those two masterpieces in my sleep. Well actually I am more of a HUMANIST neohippie if I would describe myself as anything. A humanist since a teenager, that was the direction my studies took in school in Sweden and a neohippie going on two decades now. The other day somebody I discussed politics with called me a Libertarian. In the end I am a human being.
Bernie spoke eloquently, with confidence and clearly. At 81 years "old" he sure has a lot of spunk. THAT is GOALS to me, true goals instead of dreaming of having an ass like Kim K and similar bullshit to that.

Politics is a very complicated subject. I hate huge amounts of money is necessary to reach anywhere politically in the US. And just like you cannot agree with everything an individual does and says you cannot agree with every choice and statement a politician stands for and has made in the past.
But overall I agree with what Bernie stands for and I think it is time for affordable health care for all, women should decide on their own regarding their own reproduction, education should be low cost and so should child care, rent should be affordable and I believe in caring for the environment because we only have this one planet that is housing us all. GO BERNIE! I wish he was the president of the United States. And me the VP.